As I may (or may not) have mentioned, one of our hostesses at work just had a baby. I was asked if I could help out by picking up a few shifts. Well, technically, it started out as a favor: "Just this once...do you mind?" I agreed and said I'd be happy to help. Of course, typical of RR they've begun abusing my kindness. I've all but been pulled off the server schedule and my usual money-making shifts have been replaced with mind-numbing busy work. Sure, I get thank you's but I don't think they (the managers) understand just how irritated I am. First, I make more money as a server than I do hostessing and second, it's one of the world's most miserable jobs. It's literally draining me and, mark my words, I will not volunteer myself again any time soon.
Because I've been working countless doubles and long, terrible hours I've been lacking ME time...so this is my public apology to the masses. If you feel that I've been ignoring you or short with you lately, it has not been intentional. I apologize for not returning calls, texts and emails but the little time I have for myself is just enough to get home, pour a glass of wine and chill before I pass out and move on to the next day of misery. I talked to some of the managers and (hopefully) they plan to cut my hours back...upon request, obviously. I have so many things around the house that have to get done and there simply aren't enough hours in the day.
I had my first "bad day" tonight. For a week I've held strong and managed to push through the pains of deployment but (I'm guessing due to all the stress factors in my life right now) I broke down and cried. It hurts and I miss Adam so much it's ridiculous. Thank GOD for my dogs or I'd go crazy in this house! Of course, Adam and I still email each other, provided the ship has it turned on (sometimes they turn the radar off to avoid being detected) but it's so much harder that way. I'd give anything to hear his voice or even see his face. Yes, Skype would be a welcome, wonderful luxury. UNfortunately, this ship's public-access computers don't have speakers so that is not an option.
Luckily, I've made plans to visit Allison and Bobby in Macon this weekend for the Cherry Blossom Festival. The plans to find a dog sitter didn't really fall into place so I'm resorting to taking them with me. As terrible as these monsters are during car rides and road trips, it will, at least, give me some form of company on the TEN hour drive. I plan on leaving right after work on Thursday. Hopefully RR will let me off early... I really need this mini vacation!
I love you all and thank you for being so supportive and helpful. I would also like to thank red wine. It has been helpful too.
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
Monday, March 12, 2012
Emotional Rollercoaster
Hello internet. We meet again. You can tell I've been spending entirely too much time on my iPhone when I type with reckless abandon and expect my multitude of errors to just magically correct themselves. Also, for some strange reason, I've been hitting the period key twice in hope that it will space my words for me. Oh technology! Why can't you yet read my mind?!
I must say these past couple months have been the biggest grab bag of emotions under the sun. We finally closed on our house, although nothing is ever as easy as it sounds. We moved out of Steve and Leah's in February, after nearly a month of living with them. As fun as they are and as much as Adam and I both love them, we owed them time together. After getting permission from some mystery property manager for an early release, we moved into our future home...still sans the whole "closing" business. (Side note: The term "short sale" is not named accordingly. Someone should change it to "You-have-time-to-have-grandchildren-while-you-wait-on-your-home sale".) After a ton of waiting, Adam and I closed on our house on Monday, March 5th. Since then, we've been trying to repair our fixer-upper as quickly as possible. So far we've renovated the laundry room, the kitchen (kind of), breakfast nook, and we're in the middle of redoing the living room.
Adam and I were trying to hurry the renovations because he departed on his first ever deployment today, exactly ONE week from closing! Ahh!
Adam left today for his SEVEN month deployment on the USS Porter. Luckily, I was able to tour the ship before it set sail and have an authentic Navy-style lunch. After experiencing these things, my level of appreciation increases. The quarters are tiny and the missions are never ending. What sacrifices these men and women have to make!! I made Adam a box of goodies to take with him and we had a whole week off together, which was beyond wonderful but the goodbyes we said today were some of the hardest things I've had to do thus far. I've tried to stay as strong as I possibly can but there's really nothing that can prepare someone for such a terrible heartache. Adam is my rock. He's my number one supporter, my biggest motivator and my best friend so I would be lying if I said I think these seven months will be easy. There's no doubt that it will get easier but that doesn't mean I have to start liking it. Thank goodness I have a handful of ladies here who are dealing with some of the same emotions. I'd be completely lost without them. As sad as I may be, my heart is swelling with pride for the courageous, loving and dedicated man I married. He makes sacrifices daily to provide for us and our furry kids and I couldn't be any more grateful. I am thankful and blessed beyond measure!
As for tonight, I'm enjoying my wine. I bought journal to record some of my more private thoughts (yes, some things are even to personal for the internet) and hope to look back on it a few deployments down the road and see hoe much I've grown. Hopefully Adam will be doing the same. Thank you for everyone who sent kind, thoughtful texts or made it a point to call me today. It makes things sting a little less. Remember to keep Adam and the rest of his battlegroup in your prayers. This is a new experience on both sides and ANY support is welcomed and appreciated. I'll be sure to keep everyone updated with the latest Adam-info as I get it. Go Navy!
On a lighter note, make sure you guys save our new address for Christmas cards, birthdays, road trips, etc!
The Peeples
1017 Chesterfield Terrace
Chesapeake, Va 23320
I'll try to keep the pictures coming. Currently, renovation has ceased due to lack of funds but hopefully we'll be back up after payday!
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| After weeding a bit and chopping down a devil bush |
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| Framed key to our first home! |
I must say these past couple months have been the biggest grab bag of emotions under the sun. We finally closed on our house, although nothing is ever as easy as it sounds. We moved out of Steve and Leah's in February, after nearly a month of living with them. As fun as they are and as much as Adam and I both love them, we owed them time together. After getting permission from some mystery property manager for an early release, we moved into our future home...still sans the whole "closing" business. (Side note: The term "short sale" is not named accordingly. Someone should change it to "You-have-time-to-have-grandchildren-while-you-wait-on-your-home sale".) After a ton of waiting, Adam and I closed on our house on Monday, March 5th. Since then, we've been trying to repair our fixer-upper as quickly as possible. So far we've renovated the laundry room, the kitchen (kind of), breakfast nook, and we're in the middle of redoing the living room.
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| Living Room - mid project. Let me tell you how much I hate wallpaper! |
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| Breakfast Nook |
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| Eventually we'll add art, cabinets and glass backsplash |
Adam and I were trying to hurry the renovations because he departed on his first ever deployment today, exactly ONE week from closing! Ahh!
Adam left today for his SEVEN month deployment on the USS Porter. Luckily, I was able to tour the ship before it set sail and have an authentic Navy-style lunch. After experiencing these things, my level of appreciation increases. The quarters are tiny and the missions are never ending. What sacrifices these men and women have to make!! I made Adam a box of goodies to take with him and we had a whole week off together, which was beyond wonderful but the goodbyes we said today were some of the hardest things I've had to do thus far. I've tried to stay as strong as I possibly can but there's really nothing that can prepare someone for such a terrible heartache. Adam is my rock. He's my number one supporter, my biggest motivator and my best friend so I would be lying if I said I think these seven months will be easy. There's no doubt that it will get easier but that doesn't mean I have to start liking it. Thank goodness I have a handful of ladies here who are dealing with some of the same emotions. I'd be completely lost without them. As sad as I may be, my heart is swelling with pride for the courageous, loving and dedicated man I married. He makes sacrifices daily to provide for us and our furry kids and I couldn't be any more grateful. I am thankful and blessed beyond measure!
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| First night alone: Malbec, chocolate, a good book and my Adam-scented Navy Gator |
On a lighter note, make sure you guys save our new address for Christmas cards, birthdays, road trips, etc!
The Peeples
1017 Chesterfield Terrace
Chesapeake, Va 23320
I'll try to keep the pictures coming. Currently, renovation has ceased due to lack of funds but hopefully we'll be back up after payday!
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