As I may (or may not) have mentioned, one of our hostesses at work just had a baby. I was asked if I could help out by picking up a few shifts. Well, technically, it started out as a favor: "Just this once...do you mind?" I agreed and said I'd be happy to help. Of course, typical of RR they've begun abusing my kindness. I've all but been pulled off the server schedule and my usual money-making shifts have been replaced with mind-numbing busy work. Sure, I get thank you's but I don't think they (the managers) understand just how irritated I am. First, I make more money as a server than I do hostessing and second, it's one of the world's most miserable jobs. It's literally draining me and, mark my words, I will not volunteer myself again any time soon.
Because I've been working countless doubles and long, terrible hours I've been lacking ME time...so this is my public apology to the masses. If you feel that I've been ignoring you or short with you lately, it has not been intentional. I apologize for not returning calls, texts and emails but the little time I have for myself is just enough to get home, pour a glass of wine and chill before I pass out and move on to the next day of misery. I talked to some of the managers and (hopefully) they plan to cut my hours back...upon request, obviously. I have so many things around the house that have to get done and there simply aren't enough hours in the day.
I had my first "bad day" tonight. For a week I've held strong and managed to push through the pains of deployment but (I'm guessing due to all the stress factors in my life right now) I broke down and cried. It hurts and I miss Adam so much it's ridiculous. Thank GOD for my dogs or I'd go crazy in this house! Of course, Adam and I still email each other, provided the ship has it turned on (sometimes they turn the radar off to avoid being detected) but it's so much harder that way. I'd give anything to hear his voice or even see his face. Yes, Skype would be a welcome, wonderful luxury. UNfortunately, this ship's public-access computers don't have speakers so that is not an option.
Luckily, I've made plans to visit Allison and Bobby in Macon this weekend for the Cherry Blossom Festival. The plans to find a dog sitter didn't really fall into place so I'm resorting to taking them with me. As terrible as these monsters are during car rides and road trips, it will, at least, give me some form of company on the TEN hour drive. I plan on leaving right after work on Thursday. Hopefully RR will let me off early... I really need this mini vacation!
I love you all and thank you for being so supportive and helpful. I would also like to thank red wine. It has been helpful too.
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